Victorious4
Senior Community Member
1st, I want to say thanks to you all -- the support shown was very helpful...!
I met with my primary care Dr. on Monday & my old therapist on Wednesday -- am doing well in that regard, my meds have been updated, they agree they were just not working anymore like they're supposed to for the anxiety & depression Luckilly, all this means I've reduced to just 1 Rx now with many less side effects *WHEW*
I met with my SO on Friday, too.... Very emotional & at the same time we figured out a lot of practical life stuff. We're still "together" being Mama & Daddy for Leila, but he will be moving on his own -- I just feel that I need a break for myself & the pressure of a new environment along with homeschooling & not having any friends for either myself or Leila, etc. might just be too much for me. This means we're doing lots of hugging & cuddling, we're going to maintain contact after he moves (we're still best friends) & he's staying with us at my parents' now until Tuesday when we go back to his house. Leila & I are going to continue living there; she'll enter the Montessori PreK & I'm going to get a part time job (hopefully at the school, library, arts centers or YWCA) while I take only 1 online class & get back into my yoga, reading, other hobbies & also become involved in the local Holistic Mom's Network
I feel like I've grown a lot as a person that past week, like I finally came to deeply understand & totally own a lot of the positive self talk I was merely frustratingly force-feeding myself before It was difficult, but all things happen for a reason & I have more faith in myself now as a woman & I believe Leila is in for a brighter future with the life she has with this "new" me & the insights into my own life that I've gained!
I met with my primary care Dr. on Monday & my old therapist on Wednesday -- am doing well in that regard, my meds have been updated, they agree they were just not working anymore like they're supposed to for the anxiety & depression Luckilly, all this means I've reduced to just 1 Rx now with many less side effects *WHEW*
I met with my SO on Friday, too.... Very emotional & at the same time we figured out a lot of practical life stuff. We're still "together" being Mama & Daddy for Leila, but he will be moving on his own -- I just feel that I need a break for myself & the pressure of a new environment along with homeschooling & not having any friends for either myself or Leila, etc. might just be too much for me. This means we're doing lots of hugging & cuddling, we're going to maintain contact after he moves (we're still best friends) & he's staying with us at my parents' now until Tuesday when we go back to his house. Leila & I are going to continue living there; she'll enter the Montessori PreK & I'm going to get a part time job (hopefully at the school, library, arts centers or YWCA) while I take only 1 online class & get back into my yoga, reading, other hobbies & also become involved in the local Holistic Mom's Network
I feel like I've grown a lot as a person that past week, like I finally came to deeply understand & totally own a lot of the positive self talk I was merely frustratingly force-feeding myself before It was difficult, but all things happen for a reason & I have more faith in myself now as a woman & I believe Leila is in for a brighter future with the life she has with this "new" me & the insights into my own life that I've gained!